Tuesday, April 3, 2012
hi jevousmanque blog, its had been so long since i confided in you. Well, one year had gone. Had been a tough year. I fell and fell and fell. I am still the old same me. The unconfident me:( But still, I still pull it through. I going to be in year 2 coming April.It was really tough for me. I could still recall the first day I drag myself to ITE. Wearing the ITE uniform, meeting my friend, heavy feeling, extremely sad. Having to see my friends all going polytechnic, the feeling the pain is still inside me. I'm a guy but guy is a human too. All human have feelings. I have people who come over to me or telling me they are graduating this year sarcastically. The indescribable feeling, the extreme lowest point of my life. No one can understand how hurt I was. My life is simply meaningless. I am such a useless person. I did so many bad things. The guilt will forever haunt me. I just cant stop. This year I believe will be as usual lowest point for me as well. All my secondary friends will be going army soon. I will only be in poly year 2 coming April. No one can ever understand the feeling. Fall, struggle, lonely. I cant seems to find the warmth in life. Still, I want to thank some people who helped me in life. They are the ones who give me hopes. Counselor, teachers, and some friends. Well Boon Hing, continue to work hard. Focus. Everything will be fine. Family will get better, school will get better, I will get better, everything will get better. You will grow stronger through mistakes. Start afresh and repent through good deeds.
It's faith in something